Death = Peace

Is it possible to have peace on earth? There will be no peace if there is still evil. If there is good, there is evil. It won’t be gone. They are part of the earth’s balance. Therefore, it is true that Utopia…was just a dream at all. A good instructor told me something when I write about that I am hoping I was born in the state of Utopia, not at this state we have now. This is her comment for me about that…

“Well dream on. Utopia is such a big thing to aspire but if you work for the good of humanity and you convince at least ten people to do the same and each one convinces ten others and soon, maybe Utopia could be a reality.” This is exactly what she noted.

I never had a peace of mind. There are things always bother me. About family, school, friends, things, and in this world we live in. Problems, that is. Thinking of those could make me crazy, but not a single chance. Because I believe my mind is not that weak to become that. There are times that I cry when thinking of those problems. I do not want someone to see me cry. I cry it out alone before going to sleep. Crying somehow relieves the pain I feel inside. When this thing happens, I always wish to die. Wishing somebody will kill me, won’t be awake forever, or die by accident. Die unintentionally. Because now…I am not afraid to die. To have an amnesia forever ei. Hmmm…that was good also. Just to forget it all…

I want to die. I am giving up my life. Give it to someone who is in need.

What about doing SUICIDE? lol…For me, only COWARDS do suicide. I’d rather die by fate than in my own hands. And here I am, still carrying on. Carry on…carry on.

“Rest In Peace.” Words most grave stone were encrypted. So, obviously, it is true that…”You can only find peace…in death.”